~thE ViSit On sUndAy~
i could say i enjoy that moment but i sad after that....i got to see him..finally after a long period...well..he had slim down....y did he put on weight..???haiz...it might be very tough for him...all this little care n concerns i could onli show it through letters...i got to say...n confess ...yes....i do have many many many things to say to him...but somehow its the matter of "face" that makes all the words stuck in my throat....i hate the feeling (cos im a coward) ...the only way i could say all these things is only through letters...even sometimes in the letter, i will try to control n cant juz spill or pour everything out...cos i have to think for him..i cant pressurize him by saying all that stuffs...argh!!!n this makes me feel worse...throughout all this visit...i have hide all my feelings n emotions...for everytime i visit him..my heart will start to pump faster than normal..im so excited...nervous...cum happy...n after every visit..if i were to be at home...this is the time i vent out all my feelings...as being a cry-baby..i would cried n cried ....sob*sob*...memories...feelings...promises that we have made...all juz flashback..n keep repeating like radio...it's haunting me....i couldnt escape...its reali hurts....juz like 24/10 sunday..i just visited him...oh!!that moment reali my heart couldnt stop laughing..when he said that" if they asked just said that u r my....." whooooooo~ reali fly high man!!! i also told him i received his letter n i think i will be receiving another soon....hahaha..in the letter..he said about "7-11" things..he reali mean it??? or he still cares thats y makes him blow his top? or m i reali think too much?? haiz...anyway just feel happy as this visit(26/10) reali makes me feel soooo happy...just for that moment...when i got home...i was raining heavily in my room...just couldnt stop...
...to hOrRibLe...PpL...
people might say "oh! gosh ! stop being so dramatic..or how could it be after so long..." n these reali pissed me off!!!! i juz wanna say..fuck off !!! u people juz wont understand the way how i feel...n nv will u have the chance to experience it ....being so rude is what i turn to be when i met frenz who reali dont understand n treasure me ...the only thing u people know are just backstabbing n ur brains only contain shits!!!!! ....
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